{"id":3183,"date":"2012-12-29T05:04:00","date_gmt":"2012-12-29T05:04:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/mywalkabout.net\/2012\/12\/29\/meditations-in-an-emergency"},"modified":"2021-09-18T06:07:08","modified_gmt":"2021-09-18T13:07:08","slug":"meditations-in-an-emergency","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mywalkabout.net\/?p=3183","title":{"rendered":"Meditations in an Emergency"},"content":{"rendered":"<script type=\"text\/plain\" data-tcf=\"waiting-for-consent\" data-id=\"22826\" data-bid=\"1\" data-placement=\"22827\">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<\/script><div dir=\"ltr\" style=\"text-align: left;\">\n<div dir=\"ltr\" style=\"text-align: center;\">\n<div dir=\"ltr\" style=\"text-align: left;\">The title of this post was the first blog I ever read. His words resonated deeply, tormented thoughts bleeding onto proverbial paper.\n\n<p>I thought, if this person can do it, maybe too can I&#8230;.and so it began.<\/p>\n<div class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: center;\"><a style=\"clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;\" href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/mywalkabout.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/12\/277a7-dsc02586.jpg?ssl=1\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/mywalkabout.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/12\/277a7-dsc02586.jpg?resize=640%2C426&#038;ssl=1\" width=\"640\" height=\"426\" border=\"0\" \/><\/a><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p>I take the book by <a href=\"http:\/\/www.frankohara.org\/\">Frank O&#8217;Hara<\/a> to the top of a park in Praha. I find a strange, gigantic metronome keeping time for no one. Sitting in the winter chill among colorful graffiti, I read the book in it&#8217;s entirety whilst the sun sets on the city below.<\/p>\n<div class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: center;\"><a style=\"clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;\" href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/mywalkabout.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/12\/499ff-dsc02576.jpg?ssl=1\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/mywalkabout.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/12\/499ff-dsc02576.jpg?resize=640%2C426&#038;ssl=1\" width=\"640\" height=\"426\" border=\"0\" \/><\/a><\/div>\n<p><b>page 1<\/b><i> &#8220;I wanted to be sure to reach you, though my ship was on the way it got caught in some moorings. I am always tying up and then deciding to depart.&#8221;<\/i><\/p>\n<div class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: center;\"><a style=\"clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;\" href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/mywalkabout.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/12\/23d83-dsc02583.jpg?ssl=1\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/mywalkabout.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/12\/23d83-dsc02583.jpg?resize=640%2C426&#038;ssl=1\" width=\"640\" height=\"426\" border=\"0\" \/><\/a><\/div>\n<p><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><br \/><b>page 11 <\/b><i>&#8220;Whole days would go by, and later their years, while I thought of nothing but its darkness drifting like a bridge against the sky.&#8221;<\/i><\/p>\n<div class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: center;\"><a style=\"clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;\" href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/mywalkabout.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/12\/c3008-dsc02593.jpg?ssl=1\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/mywalkabout.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/12\/c3008-dsc02593.jpg?resize=640%2C426&#038;ssl=1\" width=\"640\" height=\"426\" border=\"0\" \/><\/a><\/div>\n<p><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><br \/><b>page 19 <\/b><i>&#8220;If I am ever to find these trees meaningful I must have you by the hand. As it is, they stretch dusty fingers into an obscure sky.&#8221;<\/i><\/p>\n<div class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: center;\"><a style=\"clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;\" href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/mywalkabout.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/12\/c544e-dsc02584.jpg?ssl=1\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/mywalkabout.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/12\/c544e-dsc02584.jpg?resize=640%2C426&#038;ssl=1\" width=\"640\" height=\"426\" border=\"0\" \/><\/a><\/div>\n<p><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><br \/><b>page 37 <\/b><i>&#8220;I am troubled as I salute the crocus. There shall be no more reclining on the powdered roads, your veins are using up the redness of the world.&#8221;<\/i><\/p>\n<div class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: center;\"><a style=\"clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;\" href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/mywalkabout.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/12\/4f291-dsc02578.jpg?ssl=1\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/mywalkabout.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/12\/4f291-dsc02578.jpg?resize=640%2C426&#038;ssl=1\" width=\"640\" height=\"426\" border=\"0\" \/><\/a><\/div>\n<p><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><br \/><b>page 39 <\/b><i>&#8220;It is easy to be beautiful; it is difficult to appear so. I admire you, beloved, for the trap you&#8217;ve set. It&#8217;s like a final chapter no one reads because the plot is over.&#8221;<\/i><\/p>\n<div class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: center;\"><a style=\"clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;\" href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/mywalkabout.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/12\/762f8-dsc02585.jpg?ssl=1\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/mywalkabout.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/12\/762f8-dsc02585.jpg?resize=640%2C426&#038;ssl=1\" width=\"640\" height=\"426\" border=\"0\" \/><\/a><\/div>\n<p><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><b>page 51 <\/b><i>&#8220;Now I am quietly waiting \u00a0for the catastrophe of my personality to seem beautiful again, and interesting, and modern.&#8221;<\/i><\/p>\n<div class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: center;\"><a style=\"clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;\" href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/mywalkabout.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/12\/3268c-dsc02577.jpg?ssl=1\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/mywalkabout.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/12\/3268c-dsc02577.jpg?resize=640%2C426&#038;ssl=1\" width=\"640\" height=\"426\" border=\"0\" \/><\/a><\/div>\n<p><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><i><br \/><\/i><br \/>Fingers are frozen and blue as I make my way down the hill, poetry swirling like soft serve ice cream on a child&#8217;s tongue.<br \/>Pure heaven.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-embed is-type-video is-provider-youtube wp-block-embed-youtube wp-embed-aspect-16-9 wp-has-aspect-ratio\"><div class=\"wp-block-embed__wrapper\">\n<span class=\"embed-youtube\" style=\"text-align:center; display: block;\"><iframe loading=\"lazy\" class=\"youtube-player\" width=\"640\" height=\"360\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/XagbSNGf4OQ?version=3&#038;rel=1&#038;showsearch=0&#038;showinfo=1&#038;iv_load_policy=1&#038;fs=1&#038;hl=en-US&#038;autohide=2&#038;wmode=transparent\" allowfullscreen=\"true\" style=\"border:0;\" sandbox=\"allow-scripts allow-same-origin allow-popups allow-presentation allow-popups-to-escape-sandbox\"><\/iframe><\/span>\n<\/div><\/figure>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>The title of this post was the first blog I ever read. 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