{"id":3219,"date":"2012-12-13T03:42:00","date_gmt":"2012-12-13T03:42:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/mywalkabout.net\/2012\/12\/13\/the-vla"},"modified":"2021-09-28T05:39:25","modified_gmt":"2021-09-28T12:39:25","slug":"the-vla","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mywalkabout.net\/?p=3219","title":{"rendered":"the VLA"},"content":{"rendered":"
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A friend eats a bullet on Thanksgiving because no one invited him to dinner.
He leaves a little girl behind,
wondering why.\n\n
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My brother is asked to clean up the bloody mess, as no one wants to pay the crime scene cleaners.
This saddens me.
Visibly shaken, sadness draped over our shoulders.<\/p>\n

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My parents have left for eighteen months for the mid west of America.
A two hour flight, a couple days travel by car.
The siblings don’t gather every week like when they were around, and I feel the creeping distance overwhelming.<\/p>\n

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My brother that lived with me for the last five years (since my sister died), moved out to watch my parents house.
It just doesn’t feel the same at night. I keep watching the top of the staircase to see if he’ll return, knowing he won’t….<\/p>\n

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The stress at work is unbearable. Bitches spew venom and assholes pucker.
Pure insanity.<\/p>\n

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Along a desolate highway, I see a coyote crucified, hanging upside down, it’s leg punctured on the fence line.
I almost throw up.<\/p>\n

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I need to get away, to find something more.
Something larger than myself.<\/p>\n

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New Mexico’s Very Large Array<\/a>\u00a0was out in the middle of nowhere, a premier\u00a0astronomical radio observatory that is trying to connect with our universe.
Asking questions, looking for answers.
Just like me.<\/p>\n

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As I approached one of the great satellite dishes, it moved, recalibrated, perhaps connecting to a far off star or planet.
The energy emitting from it coursed through my body, healed my sadness, and put a smile back on my face.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n\n

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